I go to bed with a heavy heart tonight knowing that the Pope is at a crossroads in his life. I have my issues with the Catholic Church, and I am not practicing right now admittedly, but as you've heard me say here ad nauseum, there will always be a part of me that will remain Catholic. In fact, I often fall asleep praying the rosary after saying the Jesus Prayer.
There has been so much controversy about whether the time has come for him to resign and there is no precedence for resignation, but the man is suffering so. I know he believes he has dedicated his life to teaching us how to live our lives more fully, and these later years have been a living lesson in how to age and die. But to see him robot-like struggling to speak and being transported on his motorized platform seems cruel to me.
I'm still smarting over his new book which was released this week, but as CNN's reporting has shown with their continuous in-depth coverage, he would have been incapable of writing this book. His trusted men undoubtedly wrote it and the conservatism reflects the dogma and doctrines interpreted to the letter of the law. I am so glad that so many Catholics disagree with mainline Church teaching on homosexuality and divorce, to name but two. As a divorced person, I've already gone to hell in a handbasket as far as the Church is concerned, though I did go through the official annulment procedure in the early 1990s.
But I digress. Pope John Paul II is a holy man, of that there is not a doubt in my mind. I wish him comfort and peace as the days pass.